Back to U of M...2nd Surgery on the Horizon :/

(from Holly) Went thru torture sessions today, they removed a large blod clot from my ear, felt like a knife! Hearing is good on that side. Bad news, I need surgery on right side. Won't have to wait months though...I told doctor I am hanging onto threads for life, overwhelmed & very dizzy. I am just thankful for everyone's prayers, though I am trying so hard to stay calm, I am full of tears again that I have not yet cried...& I have to look to God to see me through again, another long & scary surgery. ♥

My 1st Walk ;))

I went on my 1st walk. Of course down a snowy sidewalk, Chad by my side. Was not easy like I thought it would be...practicing turning my head left to right. It felt good to have the fresh air. My whole world is now moving up & down and side to side. This is much harder than ever now that I have the loss of the canal & now need to get my brain to compensate for the other side. It's an out of control feeling & I need to be patient...hard for me because it's been SO long already & I want relief! But I am getting steadier on my feet. I'm trying my best! I need to say I have wonderful family, friends, and neighbors! You have all been great support! More than I would have known...Love to all and God bless!~Holly

Trying Hard to Not Give up...

Holly and I both get daily 'On this Day God Wants You to Know' messages on facebook, and both of ours have been SO spot on! This was Holly's message today:

On this day, God wants you to know... that how bad things may look right now means nothing, - it's how good they can be with God's help that counts. In life you can absolutely count on one thing, everything can turn around in one day, in one minute sometimes. Don't you dare to give up!...you might be a moment away from a windfall. ;))

‎(from Holly) Just when I felt like giving up, these are great reminders for me. I felt like giving up this morning. I know God does not leave us, and I cant leave God either...I need to keep my faith.

Tears are ok....

"Walking going a little better, balance is all off still. I am feeling tears of frustration today...I spilled juice everywhere and I can't clean it up, cause the motion of tilting my head up & down are the hardest.....sorry to sound full of self pity...I need to vent that's all. God forgive me for complaining, I know there are others less fortunate."

(Holly it's ok to be human ♥ ;)

Instant Results? No :/...in Time, Yes...

 (from Holly ♥) Thank you everyone...please keep praying for me, I am having a rougher time then I thought. I need to be patient and that is so tough for me...instant results, no :/....in time yes.

 (from her Mom) Holly is home, but now the hard part begins. She has no equilibrium...the brain will slowly start compensating...symptoms of balance are worse because with the surgery her balance center was cut off suddenly as opposed to the slow onset of SCD. The emotional aftermath is very difficult for her as she is even more dependant on others. Time & patience are the key. We need to stay positive as she is going thru depression & anxiety which is to be expected.The brain is confused at this point but will amazingly begin to process new information as to restore her orientation. She has extreme vertigo & nausea. The pain is lessening with each day. We pray for strength & patience, for those who are suffering, & for caregivers everywhere. Thank you everyone for your warmth & prayers! <3

Coming Home...

Coming home today, a bit discouraging as I am not myself yet...trying to tell my brain positive thoughts...this is hard. My brain was just getting used to being unbalanced and compensated well....now I have start all over again,since now the canal is non functioning. Thank you everyone for you prayers and encouraging words...please keep them coming. Need them more then ever. God bless. And just want to say Thank you God for what I do still have, and a wonderful husband by my side, keeping me going when I want to quit.

One Step at a Time...

  Spoke with Chad today & Holly practiced walking unassisted, but with Chad right beside her...she is still very dizzy and will have to continue to be patient as her brain adjusts & she is able to regain her sense of balance. She also did some head exercises which are part of her physical therapy. Thank you again for all... your prayers & support! It means the world to Holly ♥