Monday I go to U o f M for preop appt....more blood work, another ekg, chest xrays, to make sure I'm healthy enough to go into this next surgery..I am getting nervous, I have worries, I worry about my children mostly, they need their mommy back. I pray that God watches over me & guides the drs hands
I am very unbalanced now that I am dealing with my loss of the vestibular system on left now, some was damaged during surgery as you may know, so now I am dealing with that and scd on right side. I was told to get a book called"The brain that changes itself".....It has given me new hope for a normal life, as the women in the book sounds soo much like how I am, she is now much better and living a normal life. Its just not the balnce issues I'm dealing with, but visual disturbances, this all affects my everyday life. I am praying God to guide me, as I am growing weary and tired.......
(from Holly's Mom) Holly's next surgery is March 2. She's been worse as her horizontal canal in the right ear was either damaged or compressed during her 1st surgery on the left ear which means she has NO balance! Her brain is very mixed up, creating all the dizziness. Praying this next surgery will finally bring Holly... some relief! ♥ Thank you all for your continued prayers!
(from Holly this past Friday) Failed balance test on left, I am very upset.They don't know why? He wanted to make sure I passed the balance test on left before scheduling surgery on right..I don't know what this means for me now. I need to wait til Monday when I go see him. I pray there is hope for me still. I can't live like I am & I don'twant to live with no balance :/ God I am leaving all my worries and fears in your hands tonight. ♥
(from Holly) Went thru torture sessions today, they removed a large blod clot from my ear, felt like a knife! Hearing is good on that side. Bad news, I need surgery on right side. Won't have to wait months though...I told doctor I am hanging onto threads for life, overwhelmed & very dizzy. I am just thankful for everyone's prayers, though I am trying so hard to stay calm, I am full of tears again that I have not yet cried...& I have to look to God to see me through again, another long & scary surgery. ♥